Had Gone

At some point you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life

 

Ah I hate this…

I have been hate this annoying light for years. Cause  when you got a deep sleep because your soul and body are horribly tired,  you gonna wish to not have this light wake you up in such an early morning. I hate this light for always waking up my eyes, my body and my soul and forcing me to start my day.  I’ve got prayer, I wish to never wake up from my sleep but not being dead. Then this light never let me get my wish.

I hate it when my eyes are open cause at that very second I’ll realize that an empty spot in my life can’t seem to vanish. I’ve been looking for thing for years but still got nothing for it. Seems like this heart can’t look ahead or is it beacuse you’re the only one?

My life, now it look like so lifeless. The dream that I finally can reach seems become the only thing that keep me alive. The pain that I have to bear keep my soul screaming deep inside my heart. Luckly I’ve got this brain and this look that can always seems to deceive people that I’ve got no pain.

Time flies so quickly. The time of us being together sure is short. Those days, I had always feel like it passed so long since I had always treasure every second of it. I used to thought that if we spent the time so intimately, I will always feel like we are together forever. But now your voice, your touch, your warmth, your breath are not here, I realize that our time was really short. Now there is no eyes to stare at, no arms to hold, no shoulder to lean on and no warmth to melt this heart.

The world never knew. They have no memories of us. Everyone can’t seem to understand the emptyness that I have to bear right now cause you had gone. You had gone yeah you are… But the fame that you got makes people can’t seem to forget you. You sure were live in grace, your fame still hold the world to keep talking about you. To have the same life as you sure is hard. I wish between those talking there will be a word of courage. So even if they keep make me to remember you, at least there will be a word that also can courage me to look ahead. But then the world never knew, they never knew about us. The fame and the busy life that I got, can’t cover the fact that you had gone and that spot remains empty…

 

The Pursuer of Dreams

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kinda getting addicted to those words. Yeah ‘The Pursuer of Dreams’

the words that can explain the true me. there is always a time in a day for me to just close my eyes for several minutes and reflects myself. when i see those words i definitely close my eyes right away and reflects myself. now i realized my effort, passion, ego, selfishness and all the things I’ve done till now  is just to reach the deal in those words, yap it’s dreams. but then another minute i start to wonder are my hands will able to grab that? Will the future satisfied me? I’ve been bragging about my dreams, about what I want to be in the future, about how i want to make a better world but that time i questioned myself ‘how will you change yourself?’ simple but have to give my whole lifetime to answer it cause we don’t know how the future will turn out be and cause I am sure that this question will never disappear from my head. and another minute gave me a different question ‘am i a good dream’s pursuer?’ when i thought about my dreams i definitely say yes! but when i thought about my skill, i started to wonder again. well i’m not good as everyone, i’m not really that nice, i’m not as smart as my friends and i’m not as skilled as them and you know i am a girl with a big pride so i was wondering like ‘are you just protect your pride?’. when those thing came to my my mind i feel like ‘I’m not a good dream’s pursuer neither the pursuer of dreams’ and i felt like the time has stopped for awhile and felt empty. but then i gave myself another minute and just think about myself, my head was like a cinema screen that play some scene from a movie it was like some pictures that being slide showed, then i was like ‘i do have passion, i do have willing, i do have target, i give my best effort. this is the battle against myself and this is an endless battle. what i need to do is give my best on everything i do. I think this is my way to reach that this is my way to be the pursuer of dreams.’ I opened my eyes and promised myself not to worry about how would i turn out in the future but i need to give my best on everything i do, being myself, be strong and face the future. Cause i know that ‘the big deal’ in those words would see if i good enough to reach that.

cause I’m on my way to reach that big deal and I am The Pursuer of Dreams!

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Dream Chaser

We’re Immature

We aren’t wise

We’re Egoist

We’re inexperience

 

But We have the passion

We do have the spirit

We’re dare

We’re wild

We’re free

Free to chase our dream

Free to chase our future

Free to fight

Cause we born to be a fighter

We’re free to become the best

Cause we born to be a winner

Some may laugh

But many will follows

Some may say unbelieveable

But many will believe

Cause we here to prove

We here to stand

We’re here to fight

We’re here to show

Show the world, that we’re the heroes

Show the world, that we’ll make the new paradigm

Show the world, that we’ll bring the light of life

Guys you’re born to make a better world! So trust yourself and chase your dream! Run towards you fears!

Fangirl

I wanna meet you

But not in crowd

Not because i screaming your name in ‘a sea of human’

Not in a middle of ‘a roaring huge place’

Not when you stand in such ‘gleaming place’

I wanna see you 

But not behind the screen

Not when I ‘eated’ by the crowd

Not when you show your admireable side

Not when you show your ‘fake’ side

I wanna admire you

But not as the star

Not as a ‘robot’

Not as ‘a smile faker’

Not as an extraordinary human

But as you as yourself

The you who show you ‘human nature’